|
[20 Dec 2004|04:42pm] |
This entry is something I should have done one year ago, when I joined PPT. Actually, it should have never had to be done at all. I know a lot of you are going to be really mad at me as I progress in typing this out, and I don't blame you. I'll be surprised if I ever, ever gain back your trusts again. I don't even derserve your trusts again. I don't even deserve to ever be talked to by anyone online again. Anyway... I have a confession. Some of you may have suspected it for a long time.
The one thing I have to tell you is this. For a year now, I have told people that my birthdate was 7-11-84. But it isn't. My real birthday is... 7-11-... 93. I'm not twenty. I'm eleven. And I'm so, so sorry for doing all of this. For one, the things I've said. Looking back on everything now, to fit in I've completely broken all of the standards I've set for myself. I curse. And you know... that's sad that I'm eleven years old and I've said the word 'fuck' on a probably daily basis. I'm not proud of it. And I can understand if, again, you never want to speak to me again because of my actions and words.
Why did I do it in the first place? I was scared. When I joined PPT, I had just come from a forum who was incredibly unkind to people younger than teenage age. I didn't want it to happen again. So I lied. To every person I've come to love over the year. To every person who has helped me through this life I live. I lied to everyone. Which is something I never should have done. And I never plan to do it again. Because of all the people who trusted me that are reading this message... I probably hurt some of you with this. And it pains me so much that I did all of this to you.
For the third time, I completely understand if you don't want to talk to me again. And I completely understand if you hate me now. I hate myself for this, and I probably wouldn't be really happy if someone did this to me.
And another thing- this is staying public. I don't care if you tell people. It would probably even be for the best to hear their comments and so I can find out more about what I can do to gain back your trusts. I don't care if everyone in the entire chat knows. They deserve to know.
And once again... I'm so, so, so, so, so very sorry.
|
|
| Friends sweep. |
[16 Nov 2004|04:36pm] |
As suggested, I'm doing a sweep of my friend's list. Only people I WOULD TRUST WITH MY LIFE will be staying on. Please don't take it personally if I take you off... but you just can't trust anyone more, right? Considering I looked at Inrun's journal and found an entire quote of one of my friends only LJ entries. And she isn't on my friend's list. Again, PLEASE don't take it personal if I don't keep you on. But I need to do this for my privacy. I can't risk having this happening again. But hey, if I do cut you, please don't stop being friends with me or anything. Lots of people have to go, and only a few of them I actually dislike.
Staying on -if you name isn't on this list, you're cut, sorry:
_jaye_
alexthedevil
bno
cstephens
diamonddestiny
flaminsuga
horologium
meowhil
nikitalicious
o_kristina_o
sapphires13
starrypop
supportingsash
teddymon
twilightryu
tymaporer
Sorry, guys. =( Please don't hold me to this, I hope you understand.
|
|
|
[10 Nov 2004|06:59pm] |
Who would you "match" me up with?
For me- Preferrably male, but female is fine. Please make it be a PPTer or ******chatter. If you don't know what's supposed to be in the stars, don't ask. =D
Post it in your LJ and have people comment and tell you! Change the details to fit your preferences.
|
|
| My First Quiz |
[08 Aug 2004|06:26pm] |
PPT has been incredibly slow lately, so I decided to try to make my own (if not stupid) quiz. Take it or, well you know the drill with the whole 'eating you' thing.
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
dawnsglory's journal